I am so happy you have done something good with your life. You have an beautiful wife and daughter and a family over there that supports you and helps take care of you and your family. That is more than you would ever get back in NY. Be happy for all you have and don't think that you are missing out by not being in NY. You can still come to visit from time to time and you talk to Jason all the time and you get to see everyone on facebook and we all get to see picture of you and your beautiful family. So please don't think for a second you would have had it better living here, or moving back here, because you wouldn't. You have a good job there and house and that's more than what some of us have. So be grateful for what you have and know that you make the best of what you have. No one else can make you as happy as you can.