Murphy better take her ass somewhere else

First my car, then my car again, and again. And now my laptop! Oh wait my phone was before the laptop. I'm afraid to ask "what's next?"


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Mr Know it all....

http://youtu.be/0C_oNMH0GTk

And so it begins....

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Mom slighted

It's sad to say, I am usually the mom slighting other moms. It's not to be mean, or because I don't like them, at least most of the time. I just don't like making new friends. But it can be hard when the people you normally associate with either, don't have children, or the children aren't the same age, or you're just tired of hanging out with that person. But I am starting to realize, as a SAHM, that it can get lonely at times. You need human (adult) contact. Right now TJ is still too young to be making play dates and when other moms with children his age come over I freeze up and go into panic mode. I'm not sure exactly why I freak out. It's not like I have to become best friends with this person, or ever see them again. I know how Christie acts and see what she does, and it's not that there is anything wrong with it, and I am sure she will make a lot more friends than me, but the eager beaver act scares me and makes me run for the hills! You see them spot you with wide eyes, and foam building up at the corners of their mouth, and then they POUNCE! They come over and say hello all bubbly and ask your name, and if you come here a lot around this time, and if they are really eager, they will ask your phone number. If they don't on the first day, they will the next time they see you. Then they will call, text, email, facebook, twitter, what ever they have until you respond and give in. They should make an eager beaver moms club. Now I am not trying to be "super" cynical, just a little. And I know if I stay anti-social, TJ will too, and I don't want that for him. I want him to be a social happy child and have friends. So my best bet would probably to befriend that SAHD's. Men as friends have always been more my speed and seem to be less eager. Except for the dad at BJ's that was super eager and wouldn't stop talking. Anyway, with winter coming and cold weather, there will be no park, and even less social interaction. TJ takes Saf-T-Swim, and he gets to interact while I sit behind two way glass and watch, and that's the way I like it.

Now read the article below that started this rant.


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Why Is Making Friends With Other Moms So Hard?    

Mom friend and breakup stories are everywhere these days, and to add to the list is an interesting essay on Babble from a few weeks ago "Why is making friends with other moms so hard?"
On my son's first day of kindergarten, there was an element of who will I sit with at lunch mentality. This anxiety was not coming from my son. Instead, it was coming from me. Moms seemed to be corralled in groups which I couldn't decipher how to gain entry. When I finally got up the courage to talk to someone she was off the next moment chatting with someone else. Soon enough, I began talking to a handful of women, but more often than not, the relationships really didn't get too far.
I experienced the same situation when my daughter, Elke, 2, was in a mommy and me class. A woman who swore that her son talked about Elke "all the time" stood me up on a play date. I invited her over, she said yes, but she didn't show. The next week in class, I asked her what happened. She said she "got caught up with life" and she was sorry she didn't call.
After talking to a few other "old" friends, I realized that this pattern wasn't just about me. Other women complained of being stood up or rejected by a mom friend they thought they had made a connection with. After speaking to another mother a few times at a Music Together class my sister-in-law, a mother of two boys, invited the mother and her children over for play dates. "We talked a lot," my SIL said. "I really thought we connected and the kids liked each other." But the mother declined, my SIL said, for one reason or another.
Soon Melissa heard the same woman in the music class inviting another mom and her children over for a play date. "I guess she liked the other woman better," Melissa said. "I tried not to be hurt. I didn't want it to feel like high school. But it did make me question myself. Was it me? Was it my kids?" Now we refer to this person by nickname only: She is the mom who slighted Melissa.
Motherhood is a lonely gig. This is the real issue, isn't it? We often read the wrong signals or make concessions to befriend someone we wouldn't otherwise for the sake of company. I adore my children. But who wants to play in the sandbox alone all day with a 2-year-old? (If you say that spending every waking moment with your child is the MOST FULFILLING day of your life, then I can tell you right now you are reading the wrong blog.) In desperate attempts to hang out with other adults, I tried to make friends with people that weren't exactly love connections. Why? We need each other. We need adult interaction.
It took a few years and a lot of talking to old friends to realize that it takes time -- and selectivity -- to find new friends. In fact, using the word friend is probably the first problem. Friendship takes time, years to establish. With that reminder, I've learned to take the mom slight

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Cooties

Being sick sucks. Being sick and having a baby sucks even more. Thank god Tommy was able to take off of work to take care of TJ so that I could rest. But what really sucked was not being able to hold him all day. And then when I finally saw him at night and he was in his walker, he ran over to me yelling "mama". Totally made me tear up. I still feel like crap today, but I am on antibiotics. I really hope that TJ, or Logan, don't get sick. That would make me feel horrible!!! Oh , and on a happy note, well for me anyway, Tommy is getting snipped tomorrow! Yay hooray!!

One "perfect" little boy is all I need.



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Manic Monday

I don't even work and I still hate Monday. At least with Tommy home, I have something to do. Somone to help me and someone to hang out with. I wouldn't want him home all the time because then we would kill each other. But, he does looks pretty damn sexy washing bottles....

Parenting

Can be stressful, exhausting, make you want to slam your head into a wall, or blow your brains out. But moments like this make it all worth while.




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TSO!!!

MY MOM IS THE BEST!!! SHE GOT ME TSO TICKETS!!!! I AM SO EXCITED!!! AND THEY ARE REALLY GOOD SEATS!!!

I didn't want to post this on facebook because its Mary Anne's birthday and she gets the be the best today ;)

The Best of ME

I really miss reading. It has always been a big part of me. I feel like something is missing without reading. When I read I get to go to a different place. For even a few moments I get to live outside of my life. I can be part of a wedding planning group in the Nora Robberts stories, or I can live a romance in any of Nicholas Sparks North Carolina based books. I can re-read Summer Sisters by Judy Bloom again and pretend I am 17 hanging out with my BFF. Now Nicholas Sparks is coming out with a new book, "Best of Me" on October 11th and I still haven't gotten the chance to read his two previous books. I'm going to try to read some while TJ naps. Maybe I'll start feeling more like me again, and not just like TJ's mom. Here's to being the best me I can be.

OMG

I had to literally stop myself from saying it to some guy walking by! He looked just like the actor that plays Conan. I wanted to actually jump him! Throw myself on him and toss him to the ground. But I kept my composure. I could only imagine what he would think with this fat girl flying at him. *stop for a minute and visualize* OK then. Well composure was kept and I went swimming for half an hour. Hopefully this gets my motivation going and I start walking again tomorrow. Wish me luck!

blahhhhhh

Back to the gym I go! OMG I so do NOT feel like going!! I will never lose weight by my birthday if I don't go. Ok, here I go.

Holy copycat Batman!

I get that imitation is the highest form of flattery, but it's getting old......


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Rain, rain..

GO THE FUCK AWAY!!!! You are seriously not helping with my motivation problem. I got no sleep last night, between TJ crying in his sleep, Tommy snoring, and Lulu hogging the bed, I was tossing and turning all night. I am exhausted to right now and super cranky.

And I was already cranky to begin with because I am PMSing like crazy! I want to drown myself in a vat of chocolate!! I actually just feel like climbing back into bed and sleeping the day away. Not possible with an (almost) 8 month old.

An almost 8 month old who I need a ton of stuff for. Like Mum mum's, over night diapers, formula, neosporin. And I need to return an ugly red outfit that someone bought him and some formula that Christie asked me to pick up and she ended up not using. My mom was going to bring me Mum mum's but she is on the phone with me now and she forgot them and is already on her way to work. Its not like I don't have other snacks to give him.

I WANT SNACKS!!! LOTS AND LOTS OF SNACKS!!! OMG PMS SUCKS!! Especially when you are trying to lose weight and all this snack eating is going to make me gain weight. Nothing is satisfying my snack craving. I hate when that happens. I just wanna freak out.

Speaking of freaking out. Last night, while I was laying in bed trying to go to sleep, I feel something hit my head. It was really light so I ignored it at first and then I felt for something. It was the mass card for St. Gerard, the patron St. of expectant mothers and unborn children. That card has been shoved up there for TWO years and it wasn't even in the front. It was kind of in the front, but shoved between the statue and a pair of glasses. So what are the odds of this dust covered mass card  falling on my head? Freaking weird. Someone forgot to tell St. Gerard that I am not having any more children. He can watch over my other pregnant friends and keep them and their unborn children safe.

No more children for reals. Tommy is going to get snippity snapped on the 23rd. THANK GOD!! I hate having to worry about the possibility of getting pregnant. I love having my one little boy and I'm gonna spoil him rotten and I don't care what ANYONE says. He is going to be my one and only <3

Motivation..

GONE!!! I have fell off the band wagon. I am tired and all I want to do is sleep. I haven't walked since last week, either thursday or friday and I didn't go to the gym at all last week. I have also been eating horribly too. I just feel so blahhhh!!! I have no motivation to do anything and I need to do SOMETHING!! Not just physically, but mentally too! I feel late that saying "if you don't use it, you lose it", is true when it comes to your brain. I am losing brain power! I need to take a class or read a book, anything to get my mind going. I need to go to a book store and just sit there for hours. And eat chocolate. Lots of chocolate.

Speaking of chocolate, I am thinking of being a dove chocolatier. Or at least throwing a party.You get to have chocolate tasting parties and then people buy it! Yum! Who doesn't love chocolate! That wasn't a question. There is really something wrong with you if you don't like chocolate. The funny thing is, I didn't like chocolate until I was maybe 18.

Off topic, but I hate when people use your and you're wrong, and their, there, and they're. DRIVES ME NUTS!!!!

I don't know how well I would do at selling chocolate because I like to eat it so much, but then again that help me to sell something I love. I am trying to get more Avon customers by giving away things, but in the end I am just going to lose money because the things I give away aren't free and so far I haven't gotten any new customers. Hopefully around the holidays I will get more cutomers.

OMG!!! THE HOLIDAYS ARE ALMOST HERE!!!! Kill me now. Christmas is right around the corner and then less than  a month after is TJ's 1st birthday. Thank god I don't have to have another big party until he is at least 5! That's the one thing that sucks about being born in January. It's so close to the holidays and then people say they are broke and blah blah blah. I just don't want him to feel like his birthday is overlooked every year because of Christmas. I think Billy tends to feel that way. If Billy was my husband, I would do something special for him, but he's not. That's Christie's job. They are supposedly going on a cruise this year because they both turn 30, but we shall see if that happens.

Tommy wants to go on a cruise, and we owe Mary Anne one, but I really DON'T want to go on one. I am sure they are a lot of fun, I just don't like the fact that I am TRAPT on the ship and can't get off if I want to. In two years Tommy will be 30 and Mary Anne will be 60 and maybe, just maybe by then I will get over my fear and be able to go.

Maybe my therapist will help with that. My therapist that I don't feel like going to any more because I don't feel like doing ANYTHING!!! We one thing that I can't avoid doing is taking care of my son, which needs to be done now because he is being a fussy face.

Winner winner....

Baby at dinner?? Soon enough!! I truly believe that my best friends will have a baby at dinner by this time next year. Today Stephanie and Nick found out that they won a free Micro-IVF! I believe that this is it. This will give them their baby. The other times they tried I wanted to believe they would get their baby, but I had doubts. This time there is not one doubt in my mind that she will get pregnant! At TJ's first birthday party she will be happily pregnant. Now she just needs to move past the nervousness and get started on the IVF! TJ is waiting for his wife! I knew her video was going to win, and I knew that they would be walking to her front door this morning, and I KNOW, I can feel it in my bones, that this time it is going to work! And I will be paying for a very expensive baby shower and cake. My mom is a little disappointed that she will not be doing a Chinese auction, but shes is very excited that she will be doing a baby shower. Now get a move on it and make that baby!!!

One and soooo DONE!

My one "perfect" child, as I like to call him, is all we need. My sister came over today with my 1 month old nephew who sounds like a pig being hog tied when he cries. It was nice to hold him so small and peaceful while he was sleeping, but once he woke up, back to mommy he went. That's the benefit of it being someone else's child.

Some time in the future I would love to have a girl, but I would like to adopt an older child. Then again, that costs lots of money. So if I end up winning lotto in the near future, I will adopt a little girl. Until then, I will be happy with my "perfect" little boy.




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Won't you take me to...

Funk town. I need to get out of funk town. I feel so blah and unmotivated. It doesn't help that TJ has been up every night this week. I think he may be teething. I took him to the dr because he hasn't been eating as much. The Dr said there was nothing wrong. Let's hope not. I get all paranoid worring that something is wrong with him. He only ate about 3oz of formula this morning. He ususally eats at least 4 and sometimes 6. Oh well, he is happily jumping in his jumper.

On another note, I feel like I bust my ass to lose weight and I barely lose a pound. Its a never ending battle.

So much for happy jumping, TJ is not fussing. I guess I will try to continue this later.